yikes

the holiday countdown is on and i am not.
this year, the worst yet as far as the kids go, is CRAP.
good riddance says i to 2009.
begone!
on an up note the little brown garter snake went back to his logpile home and
is hopefully happily hibernating by now....
the girls are going to florida to visit their grandparents there until right up
before xmas which sucks. i just want to relax and breathe again.
i just want to be ok with just being.
calgon, lol take me away!!

"sadhvi"

its like walking with ghosts
concrete pulls me down so hard into it
i suffocate and sting smart with pain but not with brilliance
i know i'm here, i saw the junk mail and bills to confirm it.
so why and how can i be HERE when "here" is sifting softly through my hands,
running down, drifting & pooling at my feet...
aw hell.
i'm going to need a dustpan or a vacumn to clean this mess...
so much want, it's everywhere
blanketing hope
dusting everything so thickly i need a mask to breathe
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